When I was praying this morning, this old song came to my head...
"It Only takes a Spark
To Get a Fire Going...
and Soon all those Around
Can Warm up to It's Glowing
That's How it is With God's Love
Once You've Experienced it
You Spread His Love
To Everyone
You Want to Pass it On"
Why, oh why, that song? From the 70s...
Well I believe God is reminding me of all he is doing in the life of my family....
A little spark in two young girls...
One would become my daughter in law.
One is my my daughter.
Two girls, both longing to be mommys.
Two girls living in a world where motherhood wasn't the most valued occuptaion.
Two girls with mothers who showed them the HIGH HONOR in begin a mother.
Two girls whose eyes lit up when they saw international babies...
My daughter often asked me why I always bought her "white" dolls to play with...
Two girls curious about adoption.
Two girls whose worlds were changed by adoption.
God lighting a spark...
Two girls lit by the fire of God's love.
Two girls grow up and marry their loves.
God is igniting that spark...
Two girls have little boys.
Two girls have beyond difficult pregnancies.
God is fanning the flames...
Two girls who believe there is more than one way to be a mommy.
Two girls who win over their husbands in their longing.
Flames are growing...
Two couples who begin a journey at the same moment
Two couples who don't know what the other couple is doing.
Two couples who are both my children.
Two couples who share with their parents over dinner the fire in their hearts.
Two little African Dolls...both with "sister" shirts.
The spark shoots to a set of grandparents...
Two families begin a journey of longing.
The fire begins a bonfire...
Two families waiting for a princess.
Princess #1 is such a fast journey, the parents are overwhelmed.
Princess #1 comes home to her family,
The fire is seen in two states...
Prayers are lifted, flames grow.
Princess #2 is such a long journey, we are weary.
The fire is not ebbing, it is growing.
Princess #2. She is coming.
She is not here yet. She is a photo, she is flesh. She is coming.
We are almost there. Spring will see her arrival.
Two girls.
Two sparks.
A work of God.
Two Ethiopian Princesses.
My grand daughters.
See God's love? It only takes a spark!
How many people will be touched by those tiny sparks so long ago?
What potential lies in these two dark skinned beauties...
To change the world.
To spread his love.
"I'll shout it from the Mountaintops
I want my World to Know
The Lord of Love
Has Come to Me
I want to Pass it On!"
I want to Pass it On"
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
It Only Takes A Spark...
Posted by Joan at 8:35 AM 3 comments
Labels: Daughters, Grand daughters Sparks Adoption
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Surrendering and Soaring
In the last few weeks, I've had to surrender to my Lord my strong desire to be primarily at home, my desire to care for my grandchildren on an unlimited basis, my desire to go for a run each and every morning, my desire to control my own schedule of when to shower, dress, work, do laundry, do yardwork, etc. etc. I've had to, in doing so, deeply change my sister's life, causing her pain and significant inconvenience. I've had to tell my pastor I'm not available any more to serve in a capacity I thought Jesus wanted.
I cried, I prayed, I pleaded, I got angry...I fussed some more, I wept, I agonized...I was miserable. Then I did my Bible Study. Once again, HE knew what I needed to study, what lesson I needed to prepare to teach.
The Rich Young Ruler. So together, so spiritual, so helpful, so right. One thing more to do, Jesus said....sell everything, and follow me.
It wasn't all about the money, it was about what defined that rich young ruler. His success, his plans, his dreams...all he had become.
Can I give up this part of me that defines who I am? Can I give up who I thought I was?
Jesus said "with man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible"
So this last week, I went back to work full time for the first time in 31 years. My husband and I had to tell my dear, sweet, sister that her job was being taken by me. My dear, sweet sister needed to file for unemployment. My dear, sweet sister is so sweet. She has no anger at us, she is worried about me. My older, much wiser sister, so willing to give up all. She is so far ahead of me in understanding surrender.
But, I am learning. I am surrendering. I am choosing to take HIS hand in mine, and let him lead me on this new journey.
Know what? I had fun. I had frustrations, I had to readjust my body, I ran behind in my schedule, I got my son to school late. I made mistakes. However, I took that step and rode the roller coaster. It was terrifiying. But I came off the ride smiling, not puking. I'm gonna keep riding. And with my hand in my Saviors, the impossible will be possible. I will surrender.
I love having Jesus the driver of my life. I'm sorry Lord for wanting to drive myself. Please be my driver. Take me on the roller coaster ride you intended. Now I'm soaring.
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Labels: Surrender Soaring
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Joan's Burgers and Brew Night
One of the sweetest times on earth is having everyone back in the nest for an evening. It happens so rarely, that I just can't let go of it! Last night was such a night. Gathered because of the Olympics, two birthdays, and circumstances, we grabbed the occasion to enjoy Joan's Burgers and Brew.
This has a longgg history here. For as long as I can remember, Friday night was the night to take a break from coming up with something to cook. We ALWAYS have Burgers on Friday night...in the summer, with chips and dip, in the winter, baked french fries. Throw in some fruit and we're good to go. Pop is ok too. Moms of 5 need a break. Since my lovely hubby does not enjoy cooking, I grab the flipper and head outside to the grill. Thus...the Joan's Burgers and Brew name.
After the food was prepared, I savored the moments of laughter, emptying of cabinets by one year olds, and the "skating around the island" of the 8, 5, and 3 year old...with son Shane counting the time for our "Junior Olympics"! There were tired parents, crabby one year olds, and lots of chaos. When son Lance asked me if it was too crazy, I just smiled. Just imagine, my dear son, Lance, when your kiddos are adults, how weird it would be to go weeks without seeing them. I'm treasuring this chaos!!
When the last car left, I was left with an empty house, hubby took a nap, 15 year old watched tv. As I cleaned the last dish, set the chairs on the table for a good vacume and floor scrub, I thanked the Lord for each of my lovely children, and the joys their marriages and children have brought to my soul. I'm kinda tired today. It's been a busy week at work, and after they were gone, it was back to the computer for a bit more work preparing for next week. Am I happy? I'm glowing. Thanks, Lord, for Clint, Lance, Megan, Shane, Alec....it was a ton of work raising them...I'm not finished yet, but the joy of being a parent and grandparent, and being in a loving relationship with their dad is the best!!
God is Good. And I LOVE Joan's Burgers and Brew.
Posted by Joan at 2:50 PM 1 comments
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Wow What a Dinner!
What we thought was a "thank-you for picking up the kids from Seattle" dinner was oh so different than we expected! While child #1 and wife spend their 10th anniversary in Cabo, we are sharing the grandparenting duties of their 3 adorable boys with the other grandparents in L town. We met them, as they traveled from their home in the Portland area, and child #3 and her husband who live in the Seattle area for dinner at a restaurant. After a quick shopping excursion at Southcenter, we headed to Stanford's for dinner. I must admit, the kids seemed in a big huury, and didn't even bother to wait to show us the way, just gave us directions. When we arrived, they were not waiting for us in the foyer, but were already seated. We saw our two older grandsons peaking behind pillars and giggling, we thought they were just excited to see us! When we finally reached the table, we were greeted by two squirming one year old boys with brown matching shirts. Both boys were holding dolls...I just kept thinking what a liberated family we had giving both boys dolls for a toy! When they wiggled the boys in our faces, we took the time to "read" thier little shirts. They BOTH said "Big Brother." Then we were to focus on the little dolls. They were little African American cabbage patch dolls....with little bows in their hair...on further look, they both expclaimed in big letters "little sister.' Being old and confused, I couldn't quite process all of it, but soon realized we had two little girls on the way. When I peered at my daughter's tummies, they were too flat to be both pregnant and know the sex of their babies...then the black hair and dark skin made me realize, these are children conceived elsewhere. These babies are in Africa. Yes, both our son and daughter's families are adopting a beautiful daughter from Ethipia. Wowser! We will be grandparents again! We are overjoyed at the expansion of our family, and our children's heart for God's precious children who need homes so desparately. THIS journey will be new, but what a delight! CANNOT WAIT!
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Sunday, June 14, 2009
Missed a Year...
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Wednesday, May 14, 2008
So Blessed!
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Labels: Inheritance enjoyed
Consume Me From the Inside Out
I heard this song this morning as I was running errands--I LOVE this song! If only I could always live my life CONSUMED by loving and serving HIM! It is the cry of my heart to give him praise from the inside out!
From The Inside Out
by Hillsong United
album: United We Stand (2006)
A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Chorus 2x
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out
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